I Am Drowning in a Fleeing Lake

I Am Drowning in a Fleeing Lake

477 pages

Hardcover

Genre: Literary Novel, Literature, Fiction
A young woman on the painful path to finding herself: The love for her lecturer becomes the narrator's subject matter, as abysmal as only reality can be.

She comes from the Ukrainian Crimea and is completely influenced by Russian culture. At Kyiv University, she meets a woman who is only three years older – and who casts a spell over her for years. It is the narrator’s first love, and it is to be her only one. The lecturer, however, insists on her right to love several women at the same time. In order to escape her control, she goes to Moscow after her studies, but she cannot get away from her. With the Maidan protests and the start of the war in 2014, the conflict between them becomes a political one. While the former teacher denies the narrator any identity, especially her Ukrainian one, she not only fights back against her, but also against her father, who is loyal to Russia.

I Am Drowning in a Fleeing Lake is the enchanting self-questioning of a first-person narrator who is shaken by the certainties of her socialisation. From the fragments of her past and the documents of a destructive love affair, she writes a book – and gains her independence in the process.

 

“I finally had a goal: to prove to her that I could do it, that I could survive. I was obsessed with the idea of transformation. The idea of surpassing myself. From a distance, I could believe that all of this was only happening because I had decided it. They didn't exist – I did.”

German title: Ich ertrinke in einem fliehenden See - Roman
ISBN: 978-3-7518-0983-2
Publisher: Matthes & Seitz Berlin
Publication date: 2024

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Russian original available

Anna Melikova, born in Ukraine in 1984, grew up in Crimea. She is a writer and screenwriter. After studying German language and literature in Kyiv, she worked as a film curator and critic in Moscow. She has lived in Berlin since 2017. She wrote the screenplay for the film Grand Jeté (director: Isabelle Stever, première Berlinale 2022). Her prose texts have appeared in various magazines and anthologies. She was a fellow of the LCB in 2022.